It's true.

You never will.

I was told to tell you that I don't love you the way I thought I did. I'm sure you know who said that. That blew my mind.

I stopped and thought, "Well, wait a minute. How do I love her?"

I love you like autumn.

We never stay the same, we're always changing and going though new experiences.

It's beautiful, but scary... Who knows what's to come next?

Autumn is a time of change.

And we are in points of our lives where everything changes.

We're adults now.

We aren't free youngsters anymore.

We have responsibilities.

We have hard times.

We have a lot of pain.

We have a lot of love.

I know I haven't been there for you the ways that I need or want to be.

And yet, all the while there you are for me.

Without a doubt in my mind I know you love me.

Without a doubt in my mind I know I love you, too.

But life isn't easy right now.

You have to worry about school.

I have to worry about financial bullshit.

You have to worry about your homelife.

I have to worry about my physical safety.

You are a strong woman who can take charge when it's needed.

I am a little girl who can't stand up for herself.

You are strong in your beliefs.

I lost all of mine.

Your morals are steady.

I don't know how to keep my morals straight.

But in the end... I know...

I know you aren't okay.

I am not okay.

We are not okay.

I need your help.

And I know you need mine.

I want to face the world with you.

Go down fighting.

I don't want to die that lazy stoner who just sits around playing WoW, always keeping her bedroom door lock because she's terrified of what could happen to her next.

And I know you don't want to go without a bang.

You are the gasoline to my orange juice.

The project to my mayhem.

I promise, I promise, I promise... I'll never let you go.

I may let you down, I'm willing to admit that straight up.

I can't be perfect.

Hell, I'll never be a thousand ballparks near perfect.

But you know who I am.

And you can still say that you love me.

And I know that I can say I love you right back.

I know times have been rough. Believe me, I know.

I accidentally washed the Schism shirt.

I cried for an hour before I dared to smell it.

I cried for another hour after I found out it still smells just like you.

I'm in a lot of pain right now of all different statures.

I'm sorry I'm not there for you right now.

I'm sorry I can't snuggle you and watch girlie movies with you right now.

I'm sorry we can't make pancakes with chicken right now.

I'm sorry we can't be driving all over Eugene with absolutely no destination right now.

I'm sorry we can't lay with each other right now.

I'm sorry I'm so far away from you right now.

I'm sorry that you're sad.

I want to make you happy.

I want to love you for the rest of my days.

I want you to love me.

I need you to love me.


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The One I love